The ugly...

Ok, one of the main things that I want to portray is that life is NOT a fairytale all of the time, that how we deal with situations that arise is what matters. Today I am not proud of my mothering...to be frank I was so angry at my child for being unsettled and unpleasant, so angry at myself for being a sleep deprived angry boots, SO frustrated that it is MY body that nourishes my child, MY attention that needs to be focused on him, MY stress level that affects him, MY body & mind that cook for him, clean for him, soothe him, and ME that shapes his world pretty much 24/7...I had had enough! Thankfully my sister soothed him to sleep after I had tried feeding & rocking him to no avail, although this in itself brought on tears " you fail as a peaceful mother" " you can't even soothe your own child" " now your sister thinks you are a bitch" and such thoughts raced through my mind. I am thankful that there have only been a handful of times when I have just been so fed up with being DS everything that I've needed reinforcements! It shames me that I am not always the loving, calm mother I aspire to be. So I ate a bunch of junk food, watched some Greys anatomy, and switched off for a few hours.
At home I trained two of my gorgeous clients before a late nap, a walk, a shop, scrumptious dinner, and bedtime routine. Asleep at last I began this blog only to be awoken less than an hour after bed...so rocking him didn't work so I screamed at my fiancé on the phone instead of repeatedly bashing my head into the wall...which I actually have done in the roughest stage of my parenting journey. Where is the humour in this? Where is the joy? What the Frick makes it all worth it? (Now that I've possibly scarred him for life by feeling so vile)...the smiles and the sounds of a contented babe, I guess. And well isn't Breastfeeding just a blessing and a curse?! When the milk starts flowing I'm far less likely to throw myself out the window...

Big wheels keep on turning...

In reference to my brain.

It wont stop.
Just finished my drapht of prenatal ex. guide and only yesterday completed the dancing year!
No, I did not look as amazing as I had planned, I've lost 31cms since July (4months) but not a single inch from my thunder thighs. As dance has finished my new program will incorporate bikram yoga, surfing and some more cardio. Starting back at work will surely inspire me too...?!
I want to look insane for my wedding, not good, but SPECTACULAR! I've just under three months to drop a pant size, can I do it?!!!
Thats my fitness goal, what is yours?

Cheers & giggles
xx

I dont know how she does it...

Ok yesterday I read THE most frustrating book ever written. Yes, I read it in a day I am a speed reader and I still managed to have a fantastic yoga session with my beautiful trainer Amy, a clearing session, a birthday lunch for DH bff, and a spray tan. Hmmmm my major problem with the book?

It was incredibly frustrating to watch this woman blatantly choose her work over her family. FULL STOP. No working mother I know is in the slightest bit like this woman. I fully relate to the hustle and bustle of her life, the judgement left-right-centre, the patriotic society within which we live etc ect etc but the way this woman describes her children and spending time with them is just not acceptable. The conclusion I drew from the book was that there can be NO balance between work and motherhood...and I just do not believe that. It particularly pained me how quickly she weaned them from the breast, the constant reference to bottle use and her manipulative nanny.
Rant almost complete...I am going back to work in a week(ish) I thought reading this book might give me insight into how I can create a balance...it failed.


So.  I am extremely lucky that I can work my hours around a feeding & sleeping baby, that I can leave him with family or have him at my workplace, that I can be there for his firsts. My life is always busy but my number one priority is my son.
This morning we indulged in a bowl of fruit salad thanks to DH, and DS is just starting to use a spoon for himself. He adores berries! We love BLW. Will blog about that after my article is on its way to The Birthing Site :)

Ahhhhh the unannounced arrival of my nanna...

Cheers & Giggles
xx



PS if anyone would like to comment on any of my blogs this far please please do :)

My favourite websites:

Here are some of the websites/blogs that have saved my frazzled brain...

• http://www.realdiaperassociation.org/diaperfacts.php
• http://www.raw-food-health.net/Food-And-Mood.html#axzz1eGkgCCj3
• http://babiesbelliesandbarbells.wordpress.com/
• http://www.borstvoeding.com/voedselintroductie/blw/engels.html
• http://mouthwateringvegan.com/2010/12/17/easy-spinach-lime-ginger-soup/
• http://www.kellymom.com/nutrition/solids/solids-how.html
• http://mamasweat.blogspot.com/2009/03/postpartum-fitness-illusion.html
• http://www.drmomma.org
• http://www.veglov.com/search/label/Diet
• http://www.askdrsears.com/topics/fussy-baby/31-ways-get-your-baby-sleep-and-stay-asleep
• http://www.koraorganics.com/blog/
• http://www.thebirthingsite.com/
• http://www.befitmom.com/abdominal_reconditioning.html

This gives you abit of an idea about what I'm into, the kind of parent I aspire to be and possibly where this blog is headed :)

Cheers & Giggles
xx

Early Mornings

My favourite thing in the world at the moment is our morning routine...if DS wakes at quater to 7 as he did this morning, completely soaked through his nappy...this is not a rare occurance (Love cloth haha!) he gets changed we feed the pets mummy has a quater of a grapefruit & a cup of tea, River has some floor time while I do some form of list making/wedding planning/washing/work then when he gets tired again we pop back into bed for a feed & sleep! Sometimes I'm lazy and will feed him before we get up then meaning cuddles & often some protesting to get back to the land of nod...but on these mornings where theres no gym, no uni, no DH, no sister...we just relax, rest and bond :) It will be interesting (sad?) to loose this on the few mornings I go back to work.
WHY do I feed or cuddle my baby to sleep? Because I want to create an environment where he feels like his every need is immediately met. The hormones from breastfeeding help us both get to sleep and feel serene. It makes me a better mother and him a happier baby. It doesnt work for everyone and people are quick to jump in and tell me all about the negative consequences of "coddling" a child....haha yes, but of course a 6month old is manipulating me if he doesnt want to fall asleep when I tell him to...hmmm!! It is no use explaining or justifying the benefits, that attatched children grow up to be more independent and secure in themselves is debatable to non-attachment parents and thats fine, at the end of the day this works for us, for my family, and I cherish these precious moments.

Cheers & Giggles
xx

Wedding Planning, Dance & Babies...a typical November haha

So, here is the run down of the next few weeks: I run a small dance school and our end of year performance is this friday...obviously I could not put on a show without the help of my delightful teachers, our dj, and all the family and friends that pitch in on the day...but it is SO much work and so much choreography, costumes and organising!! That aside, the dance school where I train is having its end of year performance the following weekend so I have been at rehearsal after rehearsal and my body is so bruised and wrecked, thank goodness for a chiropractic appointment tomorrow I love you C, and my darling trainer with her magic massaging hands!
Our wedding is in feb. A mere three months away...so the planning of our special day has begun. This means, bookings, payments, loosing weight and making things special. A blessing on this front is our event manager, check out http://www.blankcanvascreative.com.au/ for gorgeous, professional service.
To add to the mix I am returning to work as a personal trainer. In december...am I crazy anyone in the industry may ask...slightly, yes. But I will round up some serious clients and hopefully help them become the best version of themself! Some income also wouldnt hurt...
How do I get all of this done before Christmas with a six month old who has just started solids...?! I'm not entirely sure, but as if you dont want to follow this and find out!

Cheers & Giggles
xx

My first foray into blogging

Ok guys HI :)
I am slightly computer illiterate...so this may take a while to set up and become consistent...I dont know much about blogging, there are so many decisions to make!
Shall I remain annonymous? Shall I keep my friends annonymous? Do I have to fabricate stories to protect hurt feelings when I need to rant?! Currently my thinking is...to hell with it all I wear my heart on my sleeve, I can blog like a diary, rest assured I will post at least weekly and there may indeed be juicy content.
For those of you who dont know me, I am 24yrs, a mumma of DS (dear son) and soon to wed my sexy hunk o'man as of now referred to as DH (dear hubby...bear with me I'm getting used to the lingo). I am passionate about dancing, the environment (yes expect some tree hugging blogs), vegetarianism, the beach, parenting (haha expect some controversy here!) and obviously health, nutrition and fitness. My friends are VERY important to me - yes they will remain mostly annonymous, and I dont mind my family...much!
Of course I have an ulterior motive for blogging my inner monologue...I want to write for magazines. I want to be the "expert" on pregnancy, nutrition and fitness...hopefully with my own "Ask Sarah" piece...anyway there it is. That is where I want to be in 5years (surrounded by babies of course!).
Feel free to ask me anything, to critique anything...I apologise in advance for my spelling errors, my brain thinks faster than my fingers can type.

Cheers & Giggles
xx